the mind is tired, n so is the heart...

i'm a bit tired these few days.. it always happens when i try to do something.. sometimes, it's so tiring n frustrating till i want to quit.. ah.. i'm independent.. except for the driving part.. :P

i know it's not on purpose but somehow, i can't get EVERYONE together, not even once.. hmm.. then shall we only meet once a year, on a certain date, celebrate everyone's bday together and whether u are there or not it's ur problem??

but i want to meet u ppl as often as possible.. i know it's not possible seeing we are all separated to different places.. but it's just that i want us to meet more now rather than in the future when all of us are separated further away from each other.. now, it's just around mlk n selangor areas with a few a little further apart up the north.. later, it maybe countries ppl!!

aarrrgghhh.. just releasing some emotions here.. no hard feelings ppl.. :]

i'm home!

ok.. i'm finally home after wondering around northern malaysia for about er.. 2 and a half weeks?? haha..

well, the trip was simply amazing but because it was too long i shall summarize it kay.. let the photos do most of the talking..

Day 1-kl
places visited: mid valley, klcc, connaught pasar malam
funny thing happen: an uncle scolded me n frens too be 'noisy' in the LRT.. but his chinese accent was too hilarious that i constantly repeat throughout the trip..














*at klcc

Day 2- Klang Bak ku teh, Sunway Pyramid
things done: lol.. of course ice skating la..

















Day 3,4,5- kelantan!
Places visited: Temples n the beach!

我并不是故意要笑。
只是在那情况下，
我不得不笑。
不然，我这一路来的努力
就会失去意义。

on forgetting the past..

i thought i was ok.
i thought i had forgotten.
but now i know,
i didn't forget the feeling.
it's just that i didn't want to remember.

becoz they say:
nothing improves the memory more than trying to forget.

but i know the feeling has faded, and it will,
little by little.

Time is the antidote for a broken heart,
if the person allows it.




*meeting u is fate,
befriending u is my choice,
but loving u is an accident i cannot control.

straight forward or just expressionless?

wel, i was reading the 'memory book' for kmm version last night n i notice a lot of ppl say that i've got 'my style', straight forward personality. but i think that i am rather someone who doesn't know how to express my feelings? i know i'm not 'kayu' nor 'blur' but i think that the weak side of me is not shown to other ppl. Ppl always c me as a cheerful, happy-go-lucky person becoz i never wanted to show my weak side to others. somehow, i now have the ability to smile even though i feel like crying? now, is it a good or a bad ability? ha.. i do wished that i can be someone who is more truthful about one's feeling rather than pretending to be strong. i think i will be working on that one step at a time.. so, any tips guys?

finally!

tadaima! mina-san!! ogenkidesu ka??

yeah baby, i'm back!! matrix life ended two days ago on my birthday!! now, it's the beginning of 4 months rotting holidays!! muahahaha.. jealous leh~~

wel, since it's my birthday, my frens gave me a surprise bday party, planned by Sush n Gary.. aww.. haha.. i thought only the PG square humans would celebrate for me, mana tau, even the guys also came... wahaha.. we had a great time but somehow or rather, the atmosphere is weird between this two gang of ppl.. haha.. wel, i'm somewhat in the middle so, like this lor.. dinner was nasi goreng belancan for one last time, and still the aunty add EXTRA cili padi when the order is 'KURANG PEDAS'. haiz.. my roommates made a video for me.. so touching eh? ha.. n thankfully, they decided to skip the water splashing part which i'm really grateful for.. then on my birthday, i took pic with a tons of ppl and went home.. well, i couldn't say i dun miss my frens, but i definitely prefer home.. we will meet soon what~~ kaka.. :]

mum approved of my traveling plan and i'm excited!! can't wait for that day to come.. i'm currently busy cleaning n clearing out my room.. so i'm not bored yet.. :D

to all my matrix fren:
first of all, thanks for everything!
secondly, i'm sorry for all the troubles i caused,
n last but not least, friends forever and keep in touch!

#Life is like a railway station. People come n people go. those who like you will keep you clean while those who hate u will try to destroy u.. but always remember you are not alone. for every railway station, there will be a track that will always be there and the track is called love.#













*sorry for not uploading the pics from my b'day.. jih xian still haven upload tham to fb.. T.T

striving for pspm 2!

hey, i've been constantly studying for a few weeks now leh.. aren't u ppl proud of me?? haha.. well, can't help it.. exam's round the corner so somehow i've just got to buck up.. am still constantly eating bread (seriously, i'm out of ideas in the jungle.. ), feeling sick with nose block, sore throat these few days and yeah.. the crucial one: LACK OF SLEEP!!!

matrix life will end in a few more weeks. though i'm happy to get out of 'jail', i can't help feeling sad leaving my friends and my roommates~~ life has certainly been very interesting living here for a year. i've learned to cope, to ignore and to adapt. who knows i will be able to learn these things within a few months in the middle of nowhere.. (ok, it isn't that bad. it's only in the outskirts of town) all that's left know is to fight smart for the coming exam and appreciate the last few weeks here...

till the next post, ciao n take care readers!! oyasumi!