the unexpected turnout

i cannot believe the fact that as i am typing this, i am crying.
who knows i would have cried for such reasons?
i myself din see that coming.

n maybe i felt someone else's feeling.

was it because i wasn't supported so i feel down?
or was it because i was hoping for some push or calling back to stop me from doing it?
or was it because i had high expectations of u guys who i love so much?

i am at a lost. guidance anyone? i prefer serious with humor talk than serious serious talk.

ps: i love u babe, and i am thankful and touched but i was still crying when i was chatting with u. the only time i laugh was when u said i wasn't allowed to commit suicide. :)

confused mind

u know, i used to like being a leader, organizing things etc.. but the older i get, the more i hate.. especially organizing gatherings for my high school mates. it's not tat we are not close enough, but maybe just maybe distance n time changes people. i mean, yeah, i know everyone's very busy with stuff n i'm extremely free rotting away at home but i really do feel disappointed when not much cared to give me some feed back on the event page. if u can't go, just say u can't go.. at least give me some response so i can see whether i should change date or watsoever.. u know, it's the big group that is troublesome. i don't like it tat i may have the tendency to hurt someone's feeling by not inviting someone or just choosing a date i like tat everyone have to follow so i ask for opinions but no one bothered to give response. i don't know wat to do to gain a win win situation. screw u guys! humph..

I

Will use my not-so-thin-nor-fat legs

with little luggage, a good camera and a tiny notebook

single or with good companions

to roam this bigenourmousawesomecolourful world

and live life to the fullest.

but first,




i gotta go study.. LOL

last month of sem 2

few updates now..

last day of study week... sem 2 finals coming..
4 more days to doom's day, or is it not?? haha..
applied anatomy dun understand, haven touch exercise therapy.. so.... ><

few days back we had fire drill during study week of SEM 2 at 12.30am with not even half the students around!!  awesome organizing of the kolej isn't it?? *sarcasm*


anyway, me n roommate went to secret recipe to study last wednesday for the air-con since it's freaking hot in kl.. seriously, the waitress there has attitude problems.. is it my fault to make u wear glasses coz u can't see???
grr...

n now, me n roommate have no study mood.. need help!! haha..

so, happy studying people!! 

i have a dream..

i have a dream... 

to travel anywhere...

with my best buddies...

randomly....

when will it happen my dears???

i wonder...

the real last post of the year. LOL

Ok, just dropping by to wish everyone a happy new year 2012!!!

m suppose to be studying but then study mood didn't come to me so here i am blogging.

went out with my roommate and yi ping yesterday. yes, i'm in the middle of study week. well, have to release stress mah.. haha..

finally went to church just now. haven been there since i went to taiwan. *guilty*

no new year resolutions because i asked God for everything just now.. hehe.. except for one.

dear mr slowpoke aka right,

when are u coming to find me?? i know u are trying ur best but i think i'm tired of waiting though i'm not depressed. Yet. everyone around me is in lovey dovey mood these days n i'm forever alone. *pitying myself* so pls fasten up ur pace can?? thanks in advance! (LOL)

so to all, wishing u guys a wonderful year ahead! happy new year! *claps*

most probably the last post of the year.

*sweep sweep* *cough cough..* man, this blog is damn dusty.. =[

well, it's this time of the year already.. time really passed by in a twinkle of an eye. i'm about to finish sem 1!! it's really a sem full of stuff to do. haha.. not really, just tat after months of hibernation and then having to adapt to a busy uni life, ha.. it's really a twist mentally and physically.

Pesta Tanglung ukm was a once in a life time experience as a back stage staff. haha.. althought there's a lot of complains here and there, misunderstandings and nerve wrecking mistakes, we manage to pull if off! it wasn't a 100% successful play without a single mistake, but at least we tried our best and so yeah, hurray!

mid sem result out. 1A- and 2 Bs. haiz.. should have try harder. and then it's study week now and i'm kinda off schedule. well, it's christmas! haha.. gotta relax myself once in a while. :P

feeling a little emo these few days with personal feelings problem. it came back to me. the thing now is: how should i react/feel when someone who hurt me the most have a new gf and i'm so foreveralone?? >< i need answers people! feel free to comment.

and btw, happy belated christmas and happy be early new year! LOL.