the unexpected turnout

i cannot believe the fact that as i am typing this, i am crying.
who knows i would have cried for such reasons?
i myself din see that coming.

n maybe i felt someone else's feeling.

was it because i wasn't supported so i feel down?
or was it because i was hoping for some push or calling back to stop me from doing it?
or was it because i had high expectations of u guys who i love so much?

i am at a lost. guidance anyone? i prefer serious with humor talk than serious serious talk.

ps: i love u babe, and i am thankful and touched but i was still crying when i was chatting with u. the only time i laugh was when u said i wasn't allowed to commit suicide. :)