the real last post of the year. LOL

Ok, just dropping by to wish everyone a happy new year 2012!!!

m suppose to be studying but then study mood didn't come to me so here i am blogging.

went out with my roommate and yi ping yesterday. yes, i'm in the middle of study week. well, have to release stress mah.. haha..

finally went to church just now. haven been there since i went to taiwan. *guilty*

no new year resolutions because i asked God for everything just now.. hehe.. except for one.

dear mr slowpoke aka right,

when are u coming to find me?? i know u are trying ur best but i think i'm tired of waiting though i'm not depressed. Yet. everyone around me is in lovey dovey mood these days n i'm forever alone. *pitying myself* so pls fasten up ur pace can?? thanks in advance! (LOL)

so to all, wishing u guys a wonderful year ahead! happy new year! *claps*

most probably the last post of the year.

*sweep sweep* *cough cough..* man, this blog is damn dusty.. =[

well, it's this time of the year already.. time really passed by in a twinkle of an eye. i'm about to finish sem 1!! it's really a sem full of stuff to do. haha.. not really, just tat after months of hibernation and then having to adapt to a busy uni life, ha.. it's really a twist mentally and physically.

Pesta Tanglung ukm was a once in a life time experience as a back stage staff. haha.. althought there's a lot of complains here and there, misunderstandings and nerve wrecking mistakes, we manage to pull if off! it wasn't a 100% successful play without a single mistake, but at least we tried our best and so yeah, hurray!

mid sem result out. 1A- and 2 Bs. haiz.. should have try harder. and then it's study week now and i'm kinda off schedule. well, it's christmas! haha.. gotta relax myself once in a while. :P

feeling a little emo these few days with personal feelings problem. it came back to me. the thing now is: how should i react/feel when someone who hurt me the most have a new gf and i'm so foreveralone?? >< i need answers people! feel free to comment.

and btw, happy belated christmas and happy be early new year! LOL.

ukm life - first half of sem 1 year 1

ok. finally i have the time to blog! life's been way to busy these days.
i have class from 8am to 5pm like almost everyday!! this is crazy!
who says that uni life is fun, relaxed and enjoyable? well certainly not to me!
moreover, mid sem is now around the corner and i have to cover about 30 topics!!!
then with all the extra co-curricular activities, i'm exhausted by the end of the day! my goodness!!
but hopefully this will only be the case until mid sem! at least during my first year. :(
thus, i am currently waiting for exam to finish so i can relax a bit and focus on my assignment.

p/s: i miss home. :( (for the first time)

Pek cek-ing!!

my goodness! it's only the 6th day of uni life and i feel so stressed out.. if orientation is shitty, try IO - informal orientation!

man, life is miserable right now. i never knew that tertiary education seniors make u do immature things. is it only in my country, or is it the same overseas? or guess, i'm the one which is not mature enough. but then again, my situation is a little bit better compared to the pharmacy course mates. they are really poor things, trying to complete immature tasks until the wee hours of the morning.

then it made me wonder, how come such 'tradition' occurs. the answer: these people feel that it's unfair if they were the last batch to be the 'VICTIM' of such tradition, so it continues on and on, some to the extend of being hurt physically, mentally and even cost lives of the juniors.

will i make a different in this tradition? well, we'll c.
so for now, i'm still suffering from IO. lol.

anxious, worried, excited--- all mixed up

4 more days to registration.

as time passed by in the twinkling of an eye, i couldn't believe my 4 months rotting days are over!!
and i have seriously done NOTHING USEFUL during my break.

no job, no new knowledge, no cleaner room. DARN IT!

all i did was ON9, DOWNLOAD SHOWS AND WATCH DRAMAS + MOVIES where two 500 GB Hard disk is not enough to store em all..

the only thing i'm proud of is being able to travel to a few places this holiday and tat's all.

i've live my holidays not as a human being but as a photostat machine, bored daily routines and irregular eating and sleeping habits. yes, that is breakfast at 1pm, lunch at 4pm, dinner at 7pm. and yeah slept at 3/4/5/6 am and waking up at noon, ermm, 12pm the earliest?

as the day for registration is getting closer, i'm sad that my holidays are ending, i'm excited to start a new chapter of my life, worried about orientation and anxious to meet new people. (hopefully i can stand their uniqueness/temper/ watsoever)

just tat there's a tinny winny problem: I HAVEN START PACKING!

guess i'll have to start now or else mum will start nagging.. ><

and one more thing: i can't wait to meet up with my kmm friends in kl!! and i can't wait to explore kl!

till my next post about the start of my uni life, take care readers! drink more water! ><

Updates!

Ok people!! it's time for a new post. i know i know it's been a looooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnng time since my last post. n even though i'm very free at home, i HAD NOTHING TO POST! i mean wat should i post? my daily routine which i don't even step foot outside my house door? or the constant downloading routine of korean variety shows? i know i should get a job in this freaking long holiday, but then my P license is in the freezer.

btw, i'm here to give some/an announcement.

as of 7th sep 2011, i will officially start my UNIVERSITY LIFE. I'm excited n worry at the same time. oh, i was offered the PHYSIOTHERAPY COURSE in UKM (for those who don't know- that's because i didn't post on FB to tell the whole world. so sorry if i didn't inform u)

n i am now busy clearing of all rubbish in my MESSY room while i wait for downloads. the thing is: MY HARD DISK IS GOING TO BE FULL!! N MAKE THAT 2 HARD DISK! so i am also busy sorting my hard disk..

last but not least, i am so going to enjoy my last few weeks of holidays.

till my next post, take care readers!

emo-ing..?

currently very emo now.. haha.. actually is not really a big matter.. it's just that there are some close friends during schooling time that i haven contact quite a while and i just feel bad about it. ( of course not u ppl..)

the most important one is one of my kai gor lor.. i remember him telling me sorry for not being a good brother, but now it's me not being a good sister.. he even treat me to a meal after i got release from plkn camp whey... how am i able to show even a little bit of kindness to him when i currently have zero information on what he's doing nowadays?? need help here.. ><

now, i have two more months left for my holiday.. i have also finished a few dramas within a week. ( yeah it's like one drama per day.. >< )

n now i can't wait for uni to start n to meet my old besties again.. missing them... :]

so good night n sweet dreams ppl!

the mind is tired, n so is the heart...

i'm a bit tired these few days.. it always happens when i try to do something.. sometimes, it's so tiring n frustrating till i want to quit.. ah.. i'm independent.. except for the driving part.. :P

i know it's not on purpose but somehow, i can't get EVERYONE together, not even once.. hmm.. then shall we only meet once a year, on a certain date, celebrate everyone's bday together and whether u are there or not it's ur problem??

but i want to meet u ppl as often as possible.. i know it's not possible seeing we are all separated to different places.. but it's just that i want us to meet more now rather than in the future when all of us are separated further away from each other.. now, it's just around mlk n selangor areas with a few a little further apart up the north.. later, it maybe countries ppl!!

aarrrgghhh.. just releasing some emotions here.. no hard feelings ppl.. :]

i'm home!

ok.. i'm finally home after wondering around northern malaysia for about er.. 2 and a half weeks?? haha..

well, the trip was simply amazing but because it was too long i shall summarize it kay.. let the photos do most of the talking..

Day 1-kl
places visited: mid valley, klcc, connaught pasar malam
funny thing happen: an uncle scolded me n frens too be 'noisy' in the LRT.. but his chinese accent was too hilarious that i constantly repeat throughout the trip..














*at klcc

Day 2- Klang Bak ku teh, Sunway Pyramid
things done: lol.. of course ice skating la..

















Day 3,4,5- kelantan!
Places visited: Temples n the beach!

我并不是故意要笑。
只是在那情况下，
我不得不笑。
不然，我这一路来的努力
就会失去意义。

on forgetting the past..

i thought i was ok.
i thought i had forgotten.
but now i know,
i didn't forget the feeling.
it's just that i didn't want to remember.

becoz they say:
nothing improves the memory more than trying to forget.

but i know the feeling has faded, and it will,
little by little.

Time is the antidote for a broken heart,
if the person allows it.




*meeting u is fate,
befriending u is my choice,
but loving u is an accident i cannot control.

straight forward or just expressionless?

wel, i was reading the 'memory book' for kmm version last night n i notice a lot of ppl say that i've got 'my style', straight forward personality. but i think that i am rather someone who doesn't know how to express my feelings? i know i'm not 'kayu' nor 'blur' but i think that the weak side of me is not shown to other ppl. Ppl always c me as a cheerful, happy-go-lucky person becoz i never wanted to show my weak side to others. somehow, i now have the ability to smile even though i feel like crying? now, is it a good or a bad ability? ha.. i do wished that i can be someone who is more truthful about one's feeling rather than pretending to be strong. i think i will be working on that one step at a time.. so, any tips guys?

finally!

tadaima! mina-san!! ogenkidesu ka??

yeah baby, i'm back!! matrix life ended two days ago on my birthday!! now, it's the beginning of 4 months rotting holidays!! muahahaha.. jealous leh~~

wel, since it's my birthday, my frens gave me a surprise bday party, planned by Sush n Gary.. aww.. haha.. i thought only the PG square humans would celebrate for me, mana tau, even the guys also came... wahaha.. we had a great time but somehow or rather, the atmosphere is weird between this two gang of ppl.. haha.. wel, i'm somewhat in the middle so, like this lor.. dinner was nasi goreng belancan for one last time, and still the aunty add EXTRA cili padi when the order is 'KURANG PEDAS'. haiz.. my roommates made a video for me.. so touching eh? ha.. n thankfully, they decided to skip the water splashing part which i'm really grateful for.. then on my birthday, i took pic with a tons of ppl and went home.. well, i couldn't say i dun miss my frens, but i definitely prefer home.. we will meet soon what~~ kaka.. :]

mum approved of my traveling plan and i'm excited!! can't wait for that day to come.. i'm currently busy cleaning n clearing out my room.. so i'm not bored yet.. :D

to all my matrix fren:
first of all, thanks for everything!
secondly, i'm sorry for all the troubles i caused,
n last but not least, friends forever and keep in touch!

#Life is like a railway station. People come n people go. those who like you will keep you clean while those who hate u will try to destroy u.. but always remember you are not alone. for every railway station, there will be a track that will always be there and the track is called love.#













*sorry for not uploading the pics from my b'day.. jih xian still haven upload tham to fb.. T.T

striving for pspm 2!

hey, i've been constantly studying for a few weeks now leh.. aren't u ppl proud of me?? haha.. well, can't help it.. exam's round the corner so somehow i've just got to buck up.. am still constantly eating bread (seriously, i'm out of ideas in the jungle.. ), feeling sick with nose block, sore throat these few days and yeah.. the crucial one: LACK OF SLEEP!!!

matrix life will end in a few more weeks. though i'm happy to get out of 'jail', i can't help feeling sad leaving my friends and my roommates~~ life has certainly been very interesting living here for a year. i've learned to cope, to ignore and to adapt. who knows i will be able to learn these things within a few months in the middle of nowhere.. (ok, it isn't that bad. it's only in the outskirts of town) all that's left know is to fight smart for the coming exam and appreciate the last few weeks here...

till the next post, ciao n take care readers!! oyasumi!

korean dramas~~

well, i have been introduced to a TONS of korean n japanese drama n movies since i entered college (don't know if i'm here to study or watch shows.. hehe.. ). so i'm here to introduce a bit of the so-many dramas that i have watch. here's a list of my top 3!

no 3:
Mary Stayed Out All Night
starring: Moon Guen Young Jang Geun Suk
summary: a girl who is in debt because of her father pretend to have a fake marriage with a rock singer so she could escape being married to the son of her father's friend. after 100 days, she will have to choose which husband to really marry to.
i like this drama becoz it shows the concept of family bonding, like how Wi Mae Ri ( played by moon guen young) loves her father the most even though he always cause her trouble and how Mu-kyul (played by Jang Geun Suk) loves his mother eventhough she abandoned him for her never-ending lovers..

no 2:
My girlfriend is a Gumiho
starring: lee seung gi, shin min ah, no min woo
summary: a gumiho /nine tail fox (played by shin min ah) is escaped when Cha dae woong ( played by lee seunggi) drew nine tails on the fox in a pic in an old temple. the rest of the story, u guys watch yourself la.. (keeping the suspend.. *evil laugh*
i loved this drama becoz i love the lead actor and the supporting actor!! seriously, this two human is unbelievably cute n handsome!




















* no min woo~~!

no 1:
Secret Garden
starring hyun bin n ha ji won
summary: ok guys to be frank i haven watch this drama yet( keeping it for my 5 months rotting period) but my friends have told me it's awesome! yeah i know it's LOL but hey, i'm here to introduce what~~~ :] haha..

so that's all for this post, ( i should be studying now.. T.T) i think i will post my top list of variety shows next post~~
* to all my friends who i reachable, i have all 3 dramas in my hard disk, feel free to transfer from me~~~

updates..

recently, i just finished my grade 6 theory exam... luck was somehow on my side when i 'tikamed' answers correctly. am really praying sincerely to pass with distinction.. :]

a few days ago, a magnitude of 9.0 earthquake and tsunami hit Japan's north coast, killing almost 10 thousand+ people, ruining towns, caused 400,000 people homeless, 2 million without power, 1.4 million without water, and a lost of rm150billion. c how disaster strikes without mercy. but this is all man's fault. recently scientist came up with a prediction: is the 6th big bang (which eliminated all the dinosaurs) already happening quietly? come on people, this is all our fault. learn to save electricity, save water, reduce amount of rubbish and learn to love and protect our earth with actions and not words! i am and have been praying for japan everyday since the unfortunate happenings and i hope that u guys who read this blog will do so too..
just close your eyes, spend a few minutes, with sincerity pray to God to help the victims. that's all i ask.

now, back to daily life. life is normal these days with a lot of catching up to do and new knowledge to learn. but reality in relationship really taught me how realistic people are. if u don't follow the majority, u are out of the league. man, how weak the relationship is. for example, before prom, we greet each other when we meet. after prom, smile also dun have a!! this kind of people ah, haiz.. mood spoiler only la~~ (it only applies to a few though) thankfully i was able to c through them, or rather they show the real type of person they are before matrix ends... and i want to thank them for teaching me that people are not as true as they appear to be. :]

lastly, i miss my peers!! it's been a month plus since our last gathering during cny~~~ isn't it time for another yam cha session?? haha.. hoping we will c each other soon~~
good night!

picture of the day: the rainbow does not appear often. it only appears when the sun shines after a rain. and just like the rainbow, i may not appear in front of u often, but i hope u know that after u cry, i will be there to light up your mood.

random stuff today.

Having class in 15 minutes..
yeah, today is our last pj class...
as usual being a sports idiot, i was kicked out in ping pong comp in round 1... T.T
things are getting kinda rush here as we are busy preparing for our coming final, especially for me as i don't listen in class.. my fault
to make things worst, grade 6 theory exam is on monday!! i need to get distinction for it too~~ but how, haven study... haiz..
bio practical class later, i don't want to draw anymore pics of animals already!!!
lol..

gtg now.. gonna be late for class...

what if??

it's 2am in the morning now.
my heart is aching as i thought about the past.
all of the sudden, i felt emo.
shouldn't i have let go of the past?
or is it because i have always been pretending that i am strong?

As i move on into the future day by day,
my fear grew more by the second.
tons of question linger in my mind,
almost driving me to tears.
what if, we are not like how we used to be?
what if, we have nothing to talk?
what if, we decided that we no longer needed one another?
what if, we never come out again?
what if, we lost contact?

i thought we will be strong together.
i thought nothing will change even if we part ways.
i thought of the future, imagined how it would be.

in 30 years to come, we would still be hanging out together.
we have conquer everything from heartbreaks to marriage to parenting.
nothing changed from the very second we leave high school.

but today, reality hit me.
will it really be that way?
even meeting up for half a day is difficult,
i wonder who will be with me throughout the next 30 years...

A brand new year ahead!!

well, time sure passes by very fast ain't it?? it's a brand new year with a whole lot of surprises, laughter, sadness, unpredictable incidents and decisions??

before we go to new year resolutions, let's take a walk down memory lane on a tons of happenings in 2010 shall we?? here we go..

Recap of 2010

jan: it's the second day of new year n damn it, i'm leaving for PLKN camp in desaru. The first day was tough for us.. being homesick in the middle of nowhere~~ but as time passes, life seems to be fun in camp. this life continues on until march, where our national serviced ended and we parted ways..

march: a day after i came home, i went to school to take my SPM results. it's the first time i'm waiting for my results with my friends as i wasn't in Malaysia during the release of my PMR result. it was a nerve-wrecking moment. However, i was disappointed with my results for not being able to score straight A's (excluding chinese of course) i cried for my results for the first time in my life.

april: rotting at home.. school hasn't started yet ( i was planning to go form 6) n i only applied for matriculation and jpa. i got the second interview for jpa and had to go to Putrajaya for the interview. besides that, abby introduced me a job for 5 days ( 1 day rm 70 whey~~ for 5 hours!) and i decided to try my hand on it. the job was hell boring although me n justin were able to explore the area around MP. haha.. ><>

May: Intake for Matriculation. Orientation week was hell. but i was lucky to be in the same room as Wan. The dorms were very old since it is the oldest matriculation college but i think i was much better than camp. Wan left during orientation week. JPA results out n i didn't get it. so i officially started my matriculation life at KMM...

June: second intake of matriculation. my wife still didn't get it. so she left form 6 and went to Inti Nilai campus. I got a new roommate. jpa released second intake results and i was offered the local scholarship. ( better than nothing right?) life in matriculation continues with a lot of new surprises. during the school holidays, my family went to jb leaving me alone at home. thankfully, i brought ekei and maxine home with me.

July: ups 1 and yeah holiday!! results came out a month later n boy, was i shocked to know i got a B for my bio!! that really made me buck up through out my first sem.

october: Pspm 1. through out study week, everyone pratically went crazy~~ maths paper was tough and the others were okay. it was a relieve after the examinations.

november: my first trip to korea!! ( forgive me for not posting any post for that trip yet..) the trip was indeed an eye-opener and i enjoyed it very much. Korea, i will be back with my friends!!
the beginning of sem 2 was like usual, ntg much changed except several lecturers. the results for pspm 1 was out and i was overjoyed when i knew i got 4 flats!! the hard work paid off!!

december: i decided to reward myself with a trip to kl with my friends.. (last post) well, i always reward myself don't i?? =) Christmas this year was lonely. i was alone at home when AGAIN my family is at jb. but it was a pretty fun and exciting experience.. The sad news of my chem pratical teacher's death. the news shocked us and reduced me and Wan Ting to tears. Unfortunately, i wasn't able to attend his funeral as i had to go to jb. Malaysia won champ for a football match n we go an extra holiday. yeah, Malaysia boleh!! I took the bus to jb and celebrated new year with my family.

now, the new year resolutions:
1. be myself and enjoy life..
2. be more mature and independent + responsible
3. appreciate things and be thankful
4. give back more often.
and so on so fore...

so that's all folks!! happy new year!! <3