first up, happy new years guys!!! it's currently 07:18 n i can't seem to fall asleep.

because i'm feeling troubled.
i still haven get out from the scarred wound in my heart n i cant take a step forward.
i kept thinking of the wat ifs n i keep back out.
wat if he reject me? hw am i suppose to face him in the future?
would i get scarred like the last time? hey, it took me quite long to recover.
y did love come nw? why din it come earlier?
y was i born a year later etc.
i am not who i am a few weeks back.
shall i give up or shall i continue? will i regret if i let go of u nw?
i am at a loss. can someone pls lead me the way?

really, love is for the brave only. cowards like me, pls give way.

20-12-2012

if the world does end tomoro, the only regret would be me not having a boyfriend before, not being by my family member's side due to the stupid presentation tomoro and not having tang yuan for tong zhi.

but even if the world does end tomoro, i am thankful for my awesome family member's love and support when i'm down and stressed up, my crazy friends who never fail to make me laugh even when i'm about to cry, the good advice, lessons and guidance everyone i met through my current 20 years of life gave me and the you who makes my heart beats a little faster these days.

and if the world does not end tomoro, i pray for a stronger heart which can withstand harsh treatments, a braver me to initiate new foot steps in new areas despite the risks, a happier me who loves and listen to myself more, a good family member who is always there for them, a better friend to those who appreciate me and a good catholic who is closer to God.

and with this post, i welcome 21-12-2012 with a peaceful heart because i know that God is with me even though i'm all alone in my hostel room.

dear heart

dear heart, it wasn't that long that u came back completely to me.. pls try ur best to not leave me so fast would u?? it aint the time to be worrying about it nw.