I AM LIKE A FOOL.

Few dramatic happening lately. Why oh why cant i be left out from the drama??

I am disappointed,
again and again,
by the same group of people.
but then,
again and again,
I went back to them,
like a fool.

For four years,
I tried hard to fit in.
But I guess at the end of the day,
what's not yours will never be yours.

And as I calm my crying self,
I reminded myself that they were sent into my life,
to teach me a life lesson.

Yes, you may help others,
but they have no responsibility to help you.
You are willing and have done much more for them,
but sometimes they cant and wont even do a simple thing for you.

It's a reminder for the future
that the workplace will have a lot more people like them or worst.

But today, let me cry all I want for having my heart broken.

the joy of observing..

sometimes i like to travel alone.
not that i have no friends but just because i know the joy of travelling alone.
i like to spend time sitting around and observing the passer bys,
of how they communicate with one another,
and of how cute their interaction are.

i see the happiness, the sadness, the bored-ness and the frustrations.
i hear of people complaining of friend's betrayal,
how they lose hope i their loved-ones,
how was their day at work,
and how is their family.

and i am constantly reminded of how despite this place being a cold rough world,
there are still people who are kind enough to make the world a better place.

i miss you.

i miss you
i miss talking to you
i miss having someone to complain to
i miss having someone to share with
i miss seeing you
i miss bumping into you
i miss your smile
i miss your laughter
i miss everything about you
i really miss you.