Monday, January 31, 2011

what if??

it's 2am in the morning now.
my heart is aching as i thought about the past.
all of the sudden, i felt emo.
shouldn't i have let go of the past?
or is it because i have always been pretending that i am strong?

As i move on into the future day by day,
my fear grew more by the second.
tons of question linger in my mind,
almost driving me to tears.
what if, we are not like how we used to be?
what if, we have nothing to talk?
what if, we decided that we no longer needed one another?
what if, we never come out again?
what if, we lost contact?

i thought we will be strong together.
i thought nothing will change even if we part ways.
i thought of the future, imagined how it would be.

in 30 years to come, we would still be hanging out together.
we have conquer everything from heartbreaks to marriage to parenting.
nothing changed from the very second we leave high school.

but today, reality hit me.
will it really be that way?
even meeting up for half a day is difficult,
i wonder who will be with me throughout the next 30 years...

Sunday, January 2, 2011

A brand new year ahead!!

well, time sure passes by very fast ain't it?? it's a brand new year with a whole lot of surprises, laughter, sadness, unpredictable incidents and decisions??

before we go to new year resolutions, let's take a walk down memory lane on a tons of happenings in 2010 shall we?? here we go..

Recap of 2010

jan: it's the second day of new year n damn it, i'm leaving for PLKN camp in desaru. The first day was tough for us.. being homesick in the middle of nowhere~~ but as time passes, life seems to be fun in camp. this life continues on until march, where our national serviced ended and we parted ways..

march: a day after i came home, i went to school to take my SPM results. it's the first time i'm waiting for my results with my friends as i wasn't in Malaysia during the release of my PMR result. it was a nerve-wrecking moment. However, i was disappointed with my results for not being able to score straight A's (excluding chinese of course) i cried for my results for the first time in my life.

april: rotting at home.. school hasn't started yet ( i was planning to go form 6) n i only applied for matriculation and jpa. i got the second interview for jpa and had to go to Putrajaya for the interview. besides that, abby introduced me a job for 5 days ( 1 day rm 70 whey~~ for 5 hours!) and i decided to try my hand on it. the job was hell boring although me n justin were able to explore the area around MP. haha.. ><>

May: Intake for Matriculation. Orientation week was hell. but i was lucky to be in the same room as Wan. The dorms were very old since it is the oldest matriculation college but i think i was much better than camp. Wan left during orientation week. JPA results out n i didn't get it. so i officially started my matriculation life at KMM...

June: second intake of matriculation. my wife still didn't get it. so she left form 6 and went to Inti Nilai campus. I got a new roommate. jpa released second intake results and i was offered the local scholarship. ( better than nothing right?) life in matriculation continues with a lot of new surprises. during the school holidays, my family went to jb leaving me alone at home. thankfully, i brought ekei and maxine home with me.

July: ups 1 and yeah holiday!! results came out a month later n boy, was i shocked to know i got a B for my bio!! that really made me buck up through out my first sem.

october: Pspm 1. through out study week, everyone pratically went crazy~~ maths paper was tough and the others were okay. it was a relieve after the examinations.

november: my first trip to korea!! ( forgive me for not posting any post for that trip yet..) the trip was indeed an eye-opener and i enjoyed it very much. Korea, i will be back with my friends!!
the beginning of sem 2 was like usual, ntg much changed except several lecturers. the results for pspm 1 was out and i was overjoyed when i knew i got 4 flats!! the hard work paid off!!

december: i decided to reward myself with a trip to kl with my friends.. (last post) well, i always reward myself don't i?? =) Christmas this year was lonely. i was alone at home when AGAIN my family is at jb. but it was a pretty fun and exciting experience.. The sad news of my chem pratical teacher's death. the news shocked us and reduced me and Wan Ting to tears. Unfortunately, i wasn't able to attend his funeral as i had to go to jb. Malaysia won champ for a football match n we go an extra holiday. yeah, Malaysia boleh!! I took the bus to jb and celebrated new year with my family.

now, the new year resolutions:
1. be myself and enjoy life..
2. be more mature and independent + responsible
3. appreciate things and be thankful
4. give back more often.
and so on so fore...

so that's all folks!! happy new year!! <3