what if??

it's 2am in the morning now.
my heart is aching as i thought about the past.
all of the sudden, i felt emo.
shouldn't i have let go of the past?
or is it because i have always been pretending that i am strong?

As i move on into the future day by day,
my fear grew more by the second.
tons of question linger in my mind,
almost driving me to tears.
what if, we are not like how we used to be?
what if, we have nothing to talk?
what if, we decided that we no longer needed one another?
what if, we never come out again?
what if, we lost contact?

i thought we will be strong together.
i thought nothing will change even if we part ways.
i thought of the future, imagined how it would be.

in 30 years to come, we would still be hanging out together.
we have conquer everything from heartbreaks to marriage to parenting.
nothing changed from the very second we leave high school.

but today, reality hit me.
will it really be that way?
even meeting up for half a day is difficult,
i wonder who will be with me throughout the next 30 years...