emotionally drained..

it's the start of a new semester, but the hostel living environment is giving me a headache.
i'm currently in denial to accept the place so i'm literally running away from reality.
after the cleaning, it did actually started to look more like a place suitable for living, except the toilet.
i think i prefer more of an emotional support to actually live in tat place becoz i'm feeling lonely there.
sure, i know my current housemates, but i dun think we have the right frequency.
if only i actually have a coursemate living at the place, i would not have hesitated to accept it.
because, wat am i to do if they all have classes and i don't.
i dun really like the idea of being alone at that place.
am currently praying for a better situation either way.
also to keep telling myself to have faith in God's decision.
I feel his presence in mass today and i was so overwhelmed i nearly cried.
He was there and he answered my questions again.
although this semester started off on the wrong note, i sincerely pray tat the rest of the semester will sail on smoothly.